Thursday, 22 September 2016

Brat !!

I am experiencing something I haven't had since being a child... My brat ! 

So far i am getting myself all up in trouble for emojis in my texts to Sir such as 🙄😡😒😬

Last night, after a really well behaved day (if I say so myself ..... even Sir said I was good) I had a task of wrapping elastic bands around my left tit ! 

I had already been in trouble for not buying them when I was told, the day before.

So I bought elastic bands and new wooden spoons from Wilkos in Derby before I made my way to my friends for an underwater shoot that actually was a LOT of fun.

I was curious to how this would feel. I have never had any form of breast bondage, and was very open to try it... Well not all went to plan ...

For one the elastic bands are shit 😳🙄 they kept snapping while I was trying to get them over my boob, I had managed to get 8 on my right boob and it looked a bit like the pic Sir sent me so I was quite happy..... Then Sir informed me it was left boob tonight and right boob tomorrow 😡🙄 so I took them off ... And tried to do the same with my left boob!! 

Not happening so.... While Sir is happily counting down the time, I am becoming more and more perturbed and vexatious with these shite bands and my clear inability to complete this task 

Admittedly Sir gave me a way out ... Would I take it NOPE !!

So over the space of 30 minutes I managed to work myself up to 35 whacks with my oh so new wooden spoon or I had to bite the bullet, Sir even drafted the text to my friend K !!

And still I was being stubborn making my attitude evident with all the 😡😳😁😱😜🙄 emojis 

Finally I text K with the drafted message from Sir which led to a pretty hilarious exchange with my friend K who obvious would love to see me even more trouble the bitch 😂😂😂

Part of me was being playful, the other fearful and just a lil bit stubborn and pouty 

I should have just trusted Him and sent the fucking text but oh no ... Why did I have to make it SO difficult 

Apparently it's because I "need" the punishment... He must be right (He is "always" right) since my pussy is always wet 😱

I felt awful when Sir made me cum, I said I didn't want to, that I felt I didn't deserve it.... His reply had me so wet and ready I came hard and quick, which obviously made me feel a right slut ! 

But he says He loves me for it ... I am His slut and I won't make the same mistakes again by questioning His feelings for me 😔 

My pussy and ass wouldn't take the punishment ...

Sunday, 18 September 2016

New Dom

So following an emotional time and s post on Fetlife, I began speaking to an online Dom, within days I was submitting to Him in ways I never have anyone else.

I realised that we have some seriously strong mental connection going on, like he was in my head. 

This week has been challenging to say the least....🙄

He pushes, he makes me face myself and what I want... And what I am afraid of 😔

I made a very bad mistake of telling him off for saying he loved me 😓

I didn't understand that someone who has never met me could do that, when people who I have loved and looked after for years struggled ... I was wrong ... Guess I am just lucky that he is online .... I think my ass would have been blistered for assuming I "knew" how he felt about that wonderful connection we have.

I realised I have done that with everyone pushed them away as soon as I feel anything for them or them for me 😔 I am truly sorry for that.

The word surrender kept coming up lots.... Until one night I broke.... I chose to trust him - it wasn't easy .... He knew shit about me he couldn't possibly have just "known" and I mean not just random shit either 

He is VERY strict, but so kind and fair too....

I am happy I am his 😘❤️

Friday, 16 September 2016

Broken, owned...

You are what I made you.
Nothing more, nothing less.
Like candy…hard, sweet, and mine for the taking.
Mine to chew up or swallow whole.
Mine to give away as I see fit.
Mine, never yours.  

You are what I made you.
Nothing before, what I say after.
I’ll write your future on your skin, in your blood.
Mine to command, to torment.
Mine, never yours.  

You are what I made you.
You say yes, never no.
Like a willing pet…obedient and faithful.
Mine to kick or love at my leisure.
Mine, never yours. 

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